New Year!!!

Happy New Year folks!!!

It's this time of the year when everybody talks about the past year and makes plans for the new one…
So I’m sitting in my bed, drinking coffee, stuffing my face with chocolate, feeling generally happy…
I had a relatively good year, better than I thought it’s going to be even though I haven’t progress when it comes to my job, haven’t progress when it comes to my marital status, haven’t progress at all really… I haven’t done anything significant, anything that changes one’s life, anything overly important...
But then I’ve tried to be a good person in general, worked hard to pay bills, enjoyed myself when I could, swam in cold rivers and lakes, worked hard to get in shape, read books, watched films, got drunk, had sex, spent time with family and friends, met new people, lost contact with some old friends etc… I guess it’s a life. I don’t expect anything extraordinary to start happening from tomorrow. I’m working tomorrow and it’s going to be all the same. I don’t make plans anymore as I don’t keep them anyway and if something happens it happens. I can only hope it’s going to be good.

And this is what I wish you all: don’t make plans, don’t worry, don’t analyze to much, if something has to happen it will happen, and when it happens then you deal with it, live your life, enjoy it, do something new, do something old that you like, eat chocolate, do some workout, read a book, laugh, be happy and be a good person. And frankly… we can’t control much more than that.

'Auld Lang Syne' for you guys

Night time thoughts...

Sometimes I forget about this place somehow. I feel like I should apologize but after all it's my blog and I haven't signed any contract saying that I will be writing on regular basis... but even so I am sorry for keeping those who are still here waiting.

Again, I don’t want to start telling you what I have been up to since last time because I don’t really remember. Nothing major’s happened really.

On the 1^st of December I decided to lose weight and do a little bit of a detox at the same time. I’ve found this really good one week detox program but God it was even hard to read through never mind attempting to do it. I was quite ok at the beginning but right now I’m sitting with honey vodka coffee and a box of plums in chocolate. Great!!! I will start again in the new year, too much nice food around Christmas time even if you are working. Yes, I will be working Xmas but there is nothing I can do about it.

My news of the day is probably organizing my next year trip to Lisbon. I had about 6 days annual leave still to take before the end of March and (as I was late doing so) I didn’t have much choices of when to take it. Anyway I have a week off in February and fancy going somewhere. Hmm... I always fancy going somewhere but never have time or money or both. But if you are on facebook then you would know by now that I’m a genius and managed to ‘organize’ a 4 day trip to Lisbon for about £60. I didn’t think of going there at first. I was just looking for cheap flights in general and Lisbon happened to be the cheapest one. Then I went on my favorite hostelworld website and then it was just dead easy. I must say I’ve never stayed anywhere for less than £7 a night including breakfast but I’m excited!!!   

What else… I can only think about a limited amount of days back so please be patient with me…

I had an Insanity workout earlier today which was great as usual. It’s hard and it’s enjoyable. I actually see the difference in the way I look which makes me really happy. So if you want to try - come along, for details have a look here

I’m starting working nights tomorrow so trying to keep myself awake as long as I can although I might not be too successful as I had to get up at 5:30 this morning. Never mind I will survive somehow. Don’t really have much choice.

How are you guys??? I'd really like to how (roughly) who is still here so PLEASE leave me a comment even if it’s only a short message, even if it’s just your name. Thanks in advance.   

I was also thinking about changing a ‘design’ of my blog. I must update few bits and bobs but I still like the bit about coffee and a coffee shop so probably leave it for good old times’ sake.

Ok folks I’m getting weary and want to post it before I’ll fall asleep (honey vodka coffee works magic if you can’t sleep). It’s a tradition now that I play you something at the end of each post so here… ‘One of these days’ by Gloria from my favorite episode of ‘Tru Calling’. Enjoy!    

A little bit about everything...

I'm not doing overly good with my blog. Lack of time is my excuse ;).
I own you all an explanation about my facebook farewell. Well... I noticed I was spending to much time on it so decided to remove the app from my phone and use fb at home only. I do apologize if I confused anyone. I will try to write more often over here rather then on facebook and give people a choice of not reading my stuff if they don't want to. I hope that makes sense, a little at least.
So.... I've been working a lot and not much is going on. (This post is going to be so boring).
I had an interesting conversation with colleagues about differences between English men and for instance Polish ones. I've been dating a number of people and everything was pretty much straight forward with most of them except English blokes. Dating Brits is like having 2 relationships. One is in real world and the other is via txt/messengers/emails. In real world you go for a coffee and talk about weather and on line you almost have sex. I understand that it's easier to write things than say them but come on... it's confusing. Well... I don't get it anyway.
Ok, enough about this. I'm still single and I like my own company and if I find someone who I like to spend my time with more than spending it with myself, I might think of changing my status. I think it's a great definition of a good relationship. Someone I know described his marriage in very similar way and I found it so pure, simple and beautiful. But right now I don't understand opposite sex.
What else? Did anyone read "Life and fate" by Grossman. I borrowed it from the library after it being mentioned in "I am China" that I read now. I love reading a book which "talks" about other books. There is nothing better than doing a new TBR list while still reading.
Another news, I'm giving up coffee!!!! I need a detox so I'm exploring different herbal and green teas. So far so good except of headaches but it should not last long. I know this blog started as coffee blog but at the moment it's all over the places. I do apologize for that but I will just wait and see...
Ok, I am going to sleep now.
Almost forgot to "play" you some music. Hmmmm...... talking about relationships, there are 3 songs and each one make me think of a different man that was somehow important to me.
So now... one of these songs for you to enjoy. It was so many covers but I picked this version (It's cheesy but rather nice).
"At times I think we're drifters
still searching for a friend
a brother or a sister
but then the passion flares again..."

 

 

Good night x

Feels like an introduction...

Welcome in 2014...
God... it's been such a long time since my last post. I don't even know if anyone still reads it but a warm welcome to those who do. I also welcome those who are here for the first time. I started this blog about 2 years ago but I have been really inconsistent. It gets worse with time. Anyway it's a place where I moan and feel sorry for myself. Well... not very often but this can happen.
Anyway about the blog...
(I don't really know why I give so much introduction, but probably because I feel like I'm doing something new).
I try to keep it bilingual but (warning!!!) my English is not perfect and I do make mistakes. So... each post should be in English and Polish but it's not an exact translation. Ok, I have a feeling I wrote this already once here when I started writing in English as well as in Polish.
Wow.... I don't know where to start. Soooo many things has changed in my life since last year. Just to keep it nice and simple.
- I have moved house
- I have a new job (I did mention that last time)
- I fell in love
- I've been dumped
- I'm rubbish in keeping in touch
- I still do wild swimming
- I've been drinking last two weeks and don't think straight at the moment
Ok, a little bit more...
I still live in Bury St Edmunds but in a different place. It's a nice big room with a nice big bathroom. I can't even say much more as after living like a gipsy for so long I don't get emotionally attached to houses.
Job is great, I like it, like the people I work with, but it's a "normal" work-home, work-home, work-home, day off, day off type of work. It's great but.... you know exactly what's missing. Still, I'm not complaining, not yet....
Love life.... ok, now I'm going to complain!!! Hmmm... maybe not. I can only say that all my life (so far) I've been falling in love with wrong people. Ok, now it sounded like I have been really unhappy most of it. That's not true. First of all I've been single most of my life and I like it. I like spending time with myself, I'm happy on my own and I don't religiously search for Mr Right. So... although nothing has worked out so far and I'm slightly "mad as hell" at the moment I know it will pass and the good memories will stay, especially as I had a great time.
Swimming, although I still do it, hasn't been so great. I think it's because I just don't have time to visit different places so I tend to swim in the same river (river Cam). This is a "normal" life: on my day off I do laundry and clean and do shopping and God know what else. And  there is ALWAYS something to do. I miss those days when on my days off there was absolutely nothing I had to do. Sometimes I feel like that:

 

 

Of course I exaggerate a little hehe, but you know what I mean. For instance I need to go, need to be up at stupid o'clock in the morning. No Polish version today, only a song but a GREAT song!!! Enjoy!!!

 





From: "I love him but only on my own" to "If you need a friend or lover or a place that you can hide I will always be there... "

Where did it all start? I don’t really know. I remember listening to Whitney Houston’s “How will I know if he really loves me... “ and the idea of this post came up. Just to warn you all, I didn’t discover anything new and all those things you are about to read were probably written already, simply because people like to write about love.  

When love is involved we can divide our relationships into lots of categories. There are some I want to write about (from a woman point of view, obviously). It's a bit like having a conversation with myself.

1.      You love him, he loves you

Perfect! It’s rather self explanatory and there is no point talking about it because you know that HE IS INTERESTED in you. God bless!

2.      You love him, he is happily in love with someone else.

Hmm.... a typical Eponine, Marius and Cosette triangle. Unfortunately there is nothing you can do unless you want to make an evil idiot of yourself. You need to let go because HE IS NOT INTERESTED in you.

3.      You love him, he is single or his relationships don't last more than a week.

This is a completely different story, but.... is it really? If you love him, you probably know him. If you know him, chances are he knows you and knows that you are single (you made sure he knows, didn’t you?) and (still) he is not asking you out. Why? Because HE IS NOT INTERESTED in you. So maybe you’d better let go. If a man really, really, really wants a woman he will make sure she knows that. On the other hand (I can hear you're saying) there is a possibility that he will come to his senses and realise that you are the only one. Hmmm... but how long do you know him? If it's more than a month he would probably knew this by now. Besides, you don’t want to be a second best.

4.      You love him, he does the “fade away”

Listen to this funny song about women “fading away” but men do it as well, so you will know the answer. HE IS NOT INTERESTED.

5.      You love him, he already knows why it’s not going to work.

“My job is too busy...”, “I live too far...”, “You deserve better than that...” blah, blah, blah. Where there is a will there is a way. Again, HE IS NOT INTERESTED.

6.      You love him, he would love you if you were....

Oh, dear! It’s clear that HE IS NOT INTERESTED in you. If he does not love you because you are not slimmer, prettier, smarter, richer etc then you should give him a blessing to get out of your live forever. My mum once said to me that if you hear: “I love you because....” or “I love you but.... “ then it’s not love, it’s a business transaction. You want to hear: “I love you. (period)”.  

Ok, I’m a bit too outspoken, but that’s how I am (and you either love me or not). I know it’s hard but if a man is really interested in you then he won’t let you go. A man won’t give you hope if he doesn't want to be with you. And it’s a really good thing. So... you don’t need to ask yourself: “How will I know... ” simply because (when the time is right) you will know.

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Nie wiem skąd wziął się pomysł tego, o czym będę pisać, ale chyba wpadłam na to słuchając piosenki Whitney Houston; "How will I know if he really loves me? ". No właśnie skąd? Tak gwoli ostrzeżenia, nie wymyśliłam niczego nowego. Wszystko, o czym napiszę, ktoś, kiedyś, gdzieś już napisał, bo ludzie pisali, piszą i będą pisać o miłości.

Jeśli chodzi o miłość, to podzielę związki na kilka kategorii. Oczywiście, to nie są wszystkie możliwości.

1.       Ty go kochasz, on cię kocha.

Super! To raczej rozumie się samo przez się. Najważniejsze, że wiesz, że jemu na tobie zależy.

2.      Ty go kochasz, on jest zakochany w kimś innym.

Hmm… typowy trójkąt z Nędzników (Eponina, Mariusz i Kozeta). Cóż… nic na to nie poradzisz, chyba, że zachowasz się jak ostatnia świnia. Chyba lepiej pogodzić się z faktem, że jemu na tobie nie zależy.

3.      Ty go kochasz, on jest wolny albo w związkach które trwają nie dłużej niż tydzień.

To zupełnie inna sytuacja, ale czy na pewno? Jeśli go kochasz, to go znasz. Jeśli go znasz, to prawdopodobnie i on cię zna i wie, że jesteś do wzięcia (pewnie dałaś mu to do zrozumienia, prawda?) mimo to, nie zaprasza cię na randkę. Dlaczego? Ponieważ, nie zależy mu na tobie. Jeśli mężczyźnie zależy, to nie pozwoli kobiecie uciec.

4.      Ty go kochasz, on cię ignoruje.

No cóż, chyba znasz odpowiedź: nie zależy mu na tobie.

5.      Ty go kochasz, on znajduje tysiące wymówek.

A to za daleko od siebie mieszkacie, a to jest zajęty w pracy, albo zasługujesz na kogoś lepszego itd. Dla chcącego, nic trudnego, jak mawiają. W tym przypadku, on nie jest tobą zainteresowany.

6.      Ty go kochasz, on kochałby cię gdybyś tylko….

O mój Boże, jeśli facet cię nie kocha, bo nie jesteś ładniejsza, zgrabniejsza, mądrzejsza, bogatsza itd, to ja osobiście dałabym mu moje błogosławieństwo, na zniknięcie z mojego życia na zawsze (mniej delikatnie, niech spada na bambus). To chyba oczywiste, że on nie jest zainteresowany. Moja mama kiedyś mi powiedziała, że jeśli ktoś mówi: „kocham cię bo…” albo „kocham cię, ale…” wtedy to nie jest miłość, tylko transakcja handlowa. My chcemy usłyszeć: „kocham cię. (kropka)”

 Może jestem trochę zbyt bezpośrednia, ale taka właśnie jestem (i jeśli komuś się to nie podoba, to trudno). Myślę, że ciężko pogodzić się z niektórymi rzeczami, które napisałam. Chociaż z drugiej strony, mężczyźni raczej nie dają nam złudnych nadziei i wiadomo, na czym się stoi. Więc... tak naprawdę, nie musimy się zastanawiać, skąd będzie wiadomo, że on naprawdę nas kocha, bo (gdy przyjdzie czas) po prostu będzie wiadomo.
Na koniec... piosenka (o miłości, bo jakżeby inaczej).

Come back...

Założę się, że już wszyscy położyli krzyżyk na mój blog. Muszę przyznać, że i ja już prawie położyłam, ale coś mnie dzisiaj natchnęło i postanowiłam wziąć się w garść i co nieco skrobnąć. Zobaczymy co z tego wyjdzie, ale będę się starać.

Nie wiem, czy jest sens pisać o wszystkim co się wydarzyło od kwietnia, zwłaszcza, że wydarzyło się raczej niewiele, więc zacznę od tego miejsca gdzie jestem.
Na początek, postanowiłam pisać zarówno po polsku i po angielsku. Pewnie będą błędy, ale uświadomiłam sobie, że  jedyne dwie osoby, które publicznie przyznały się, że czytają tegoż bloga nie mówią po polsku, więc dla nich i dla innych obcojęzycznych znajomych będę robić takie luźne tłumaczenie. Poza tym, przyda mi się trochę praktyki.
A teraz, tak z grubsza co u mnie. Cóż, w poniedziałek zaczęłam nową pracę w szpitalu psychiatrycznym, ale o tym napiszę w przyszłym tygodniu, gdyż dopiero co (może nie "dopiero co", ale niedawno) wróciłam z krótkiego (5-cio dniowego) urlopu i myślami jestem jeszcze na wakacjach. Jak pewnie wiecie z facebooka, jeździłam trochę po hrabstwie Yorkshire, oglądałam wodospady, kąpałam się w rzekach i jeziorach. Było zimno, padało (w większości), ale i tak było przyjemnie i chyba tego mi właśnie było trzeba – wyrwania się stąd na parę dni. Jak zwykle, spałam w hostelu gdzie poznałam nowych ludzi, ale odwiedziłam też starych znajomych, którzy rozrzuceni są po całym kraju. Poniżej, jeszcze jedno zdjęcie z wypadu, tym razem ja (znowu!) w bardzo małym, przeuroczym jeziorku z absolutnie przepięknymi widokami. Na pewno, pojadę tam jeszcze raz, najlepiej latem.  

I bet most of you didn't believe that i’ll come back, but… there you go, life is full of surprises. Anyway I’m not going to write about everything that happened when I was gone. I’ll just start from where I’m now.
There’s going to be a change, I hope a welcome change for some. From now on I’m going to write in Polish and English. I have two followers (shame on the rest of you) and they are both non-polish speakers so it’s only right that I’ll write this blog in English too. It’s not going to be perfect but it’s a good practice and I always welcome all your comments about my English and about other stuff (of course). So... just to let you know it’s not going to be an exact translation but I’ll try to keep it as close as possible. But then... some things are easier to be said in English than Polish and vice versa. Anyway we will see how it goes.
Most of you (if not all) follow me on facebook. I must admit last few weeks I went crazy with posting pictures of myself. It makes me look so vain. That is one of the reason why I’m back to writing a blog. On facebook people read about me regardless if they want it or not, over here however there is a choice of not reading. I love to share with others what was happening in my life but I’m not stupid and I know that some might not be interested. This is fine and this is when the blog comes in very handy.
Last week I came back from my really short (5 days only) holidays. I drove over 700 miles, visited Yorkshire Dales, Peak District, Leeds, Leek, Settle, Worcester, Cheshunt and places which names I don’t remember. I was intensive but really, really nice. I needed a break, needed to get out of Bury St Edmunds (for those who don’t know, that’s where I live) and needed to recharge my batteries which I think I did. But I’m back to reality and started a new job last Monday. I will write about it later on as my mind is still somewhere up north and I’m still in a holiday mood. Soooo... just for you a holiday picture taken in Peak District in Mermaid Pool

 

 

 Do usłyszenia niedługo....
Oj, prawie zapomniałam o piosence. Hmmm... cóż Wam dzisiaj "zgrać". Niech będzie coś z moich ulubionych - Jacek Kaczmarski i "Martwa Natura", pieść piękna, choć niezbyt znana, na podstawie obrazu (lub obrazów) Willema Claesza Hedy (mam nadzieję, że tak mogę to odmienić).

 

Wakacje...

Tak jak obiecałam, któtkie sprawozdanie z wizyty mojej kochanej familii. Mimo, że pogoda nie dopisała, to i tak było super. Pierwszego dnia, zaraz po tym jak odebrałam wszytkich z lotniska pojechaliśmy do Walii. Spędziliśmy 5 godzin w samochodzie, ale nie było tak źle. W każdym razie mam nadzieję, że nie było. Następnego dnia wyruszyliśmy pieszo wzdłuż morza. Takie, mniej więcej, były widoki.



Ponieważ będzie to głównie sprawozdanie fotograficzne, więc jeszcze parę zdjęć, które zostały zrobione albo przez moją mamę, albo moją siestrę. I żadnej nie zapytałam o pozwolenie na publikację ich twórczości na tymże blogu :) 

 

Tutaj w trakcie wędrówki

 

Tutaj też

 

W końcu doszliśmy na plażę

 

Rodzeństwo

To Walia, gdzie pogoda jeszcze nie była najgorsza. Teraz Londyn, gdzie lało praktycznie non stop.

Zmokłe kury

 

Statkiem po Tamizie (przynajmniej ciepło i pod dachem)

 

Ciągle pada na Tower Bridge

 

Tutaj może już nie pada, ale jest zimno

 

Tego chyba nie muszę komentować :)


 A na koniec deszczowa piosenka: